im so devasted watching my life go down the tubes . everything sounds so easy but its so hard i am losing my daughter an soon losing my own self also. i am homeless bouncing from place to place getting to see how scandelous the world is an how many i thought were friends only wanted to have sex with me hurts so bad. i have proven to have such a bad choice in the man i loved so much . he beat me up an told me he wasent my boyfriend but i am there an i want him to love me . why if i get hit for finding out hes sleeping with numerous woman friends an all. it hurtsto lose my mom recentely an now my home was taken from me truck now car impounded by the worst possible luck known. i have not one dollar in my pocket an the welfare discontinued my aid due to missed appointments never knowing i had . i am so sad an alone an no transportation destroyed me. i would recycle or do anything to makes ends meet but i cant even breath anymore. i am not even staying with the guy i got beat on from nor does he want me anymore. i am just miserably devastated on my staability an loss of mom , being she was all i had that i keep on losing more an more . i used toi be somebody an now i feel like im just nobody but another scum on the street . i cant breath another breath with out dehydrating myself of to many tears i cant feel any signs of good health an all my resources seem to keep getting harder. my 10 year old started staying with my brother last month an she is the only reason i havent died inside an out . why have i been chosen for destruction since birth, no good memories no father, grandfather, uncles or aunts .? why so broke an none to count on . never has my life been ssuch a struggle an never my life been so bad an sad. i pray to god but he seems to pass me by everyday. why did he take my mom instantly when shes all i ever had ? 50 years old an recovered addict just gave her life to god . its such a hard thing to understand an i just want support an i just want a family to take me so i know what its like to be loved. ive been sexually , mentally distroyed an im so scared i am no longer strong enough to get better or survive anymore.........please help me
